Creativity and Courage

Dear Tumblr,

I missed you. It feels like forever since I have seen your grayish-blue user interface. It’s been forever and a day since I wrote something substantial, non-repetitive, something that veers away from selling a product. I haven’t written anything about myself, the art around me… simply because I have not experienced my life as it happens for the past few days. There’s this great pain in my chest, this hole in my soul, this inability to feel what needs to be felt.

Dear crush,

I really don’t know what to say to you, except that you’re an amazing guy. You can’t imagine how thankful I am that you’re here. I wish that whoever will be your life partner must know that she’s the luckiest woman in the world. Please be happy. Please stay the same, but if you feel the need to change something, please know that I support you — or I won’t, and I’ll slap you silly for deciding on such a stupid choice.

I’ve honestly made a right choice in liking you, and I don’t think there will be anyone who can ever come close.

Just know that there is someone who will love you. Always.

Dear mom,

Thank you for understanding and listening to me. Finally. Thank you. Thank you.

Dear friends,

Your support is such a breath of fresh air. I’m so blessed to have you all in my life. I’m really so happy with your points of view, your ideas, and your love for me. You guys don’t know how much it means to me that you never abandoned me… that you never gave up on me. To be honest so many people have given up on me, but you guys didn’t. It tears me up inside that we can’t see each other as often as we would like to, but your chats on Facebook never cease to cheer me up. It’s such a shame we live in different parts of the world, but I’m glad we never stopped the conversation.

Dear God,

To toil and not to seek for rest… to labor and ask not for rewards… save that of knowing your Most Holy Name. I am always in a restless search for heaven, even when it’s always right before me. I think I see the road You have set out before me; the way is clearer than ever. However, I am faced with fallen tree trunks, and I must climb over them. Father God, I am not giving up on the mission You have given to me when I came into this world. You have made everyone with a goal, a cause. I am no different, and I will live my life with a cause. And this means making big decisions for myself…

All these in Your glory.